this BEAUTIFUL mess

random ramblings, whimsical wishes, and mushy missives

Monday, January 24, 2005

survey says

20 questions to a better relationship

eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 7/10
Physical: 3/10
Giver: 3/10

You are a XPIT--Expressive Practical Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Manager.

You are cool, thoughtful and intelligent. Your approach and your sense of humor are under-the-radar, your charm is undeniable. You keep everything under control. You have distinctive vocal mannerisms. You may not have much interest in approaching strangers, but when you do, you are successful.

You will probably end up with someone beautiful, fascinating and off-balance. While your partner may steal the limelight, it's you that keeps things running smoothly and provides stability in your relationship. If you are with someone as contemplative and hard-headed as you, you can have a tough time.

Your greatest asset is that you tackle conflict as it rises -- you don't ignore it and let it brew. If you have a partner that *does* let it brew, it will make you crazy! You can find yourself fighting for two -- trying to anticipate your partner's needs and draw their feelings out -- which is exhausting and, well, not your job.

You would never cheat. You would make an excellent spouse. When your spouse's friends met you, they would think, "Crap, why couldn't I get that one?"

Of the 181927 people who have taken this quiz, 6.2 % are this type.

It's definitely me.... creepy.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

for YOU

Ever loved someone so much you can hardly breathe?

I have.

Loving and being loved back is the most exhilirating feeling. The feeling is always constant, it is never fleeting, and each moment spent with each other are the best times in my day. I always tell him how special he is, and how much I love him, but even those words are not enough justification. If he could only slip into my shoes just to see what I see, and feel what I feel, maybe that would be enough. He made everything in my life more beautiful than it already is. He just has a way of making me feel relaxed, comforted, and very very very much loved.

It took a long time for us to find each other, but the wait was definitely worth it. Good things come to those who wait indeed.

We've been together for a little over three months, but every day still feels like the first day. I guess that's how things are when you finally found the one intended for you - you can never get enough of each other. There's so many things you've to learn about each other, yet there's no need to rush into it. You let things take their own course. Each day is a learning experience, a chance to discover something new about the other. And like any other relationships, we have our bad days too. We get into these discussions but at the end of the day, when all is sorted out, everything's perfect. He's all I ever wanted and more.

It's true though what people say about long distance relationships - it definitely is hard. Even the word hard is an understatement for that matter. Even so, what makes our relationship work is the fierce loyalty and the commitment we have for each other, as he likes to point out. There's this mutual respect and by some unexplainable force, we've somehow managed to master the art of creative scheduling.

I honestly never thought of being involved in such an unconventional relationship, but when you have the found the one who makes your heart turn, there's no way you'd let him go that easy.

Thank you for always being there and allowing me to take good care of you.

You rock my world, baby! :)

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

the nature of desire

No one can ever touch on the subject of passion, sex, and love as well as Paulo Coehlo.

His latest novel, Eleven Minutes, manages to expound on this sensitive subject by presenting the diary of a flawed heroine, Maria, who broke away from the norm and found out what profound desire is. Maria's concept of love evolved from something traumatic and frustrating, to one that's sensual, magical, and impossible to capture.

Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. The man and woman come into play but what happens before - the attraction that brought them together - is impossible to explain. In this pure state, the man and woman fall in love with life, they live each moment reverently, consciously, always ready for the next blessing.

When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know that the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesitate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single moment, because they respect the importance of each second.

Pure poetry, don't you think?

Monday, January 10, 2005

hello blogspot!

It definitely feels good to be back in writing mode.

I've been blogging for almost a year but I must admit that my
old blog suddenly lost its luster, hence the search for a new home.

I just hope that my writing mode is back in full force. :)